Sehar e Roshni episode 23.
written by Sirraha.
“Sehar, news lagao jaldi!” Noor ki awaaz phone par goonji.
Sehar ne jaise hi TV on kiya, screen par flashing headlines thi: “Hyderabad ke mashhoor businessman Mr. Ahmed Mirza ke bete Daniyal Mirza ki video viral! Nashe ki halat mein pakde gaye Mirza khandan ke chashm-o-chirag.”
Daniyal ki woh video har channel par chal rahi thi jahan wo drugs ke nashe mein dhuat tha. Ye wahi Daniyal tha jo apni sharafat ke danke bajata tha. Sehar ke hothon par ek gehri tanz-bhari muskurahat aa gayi. Uske dil ko aaj pehli baar thandak mehsoos hui.
”Sehar! Ye… ye sab kaise hua?” Noor ne herani me excitement chupate hue pucha. “Daniyal itna bada businessman ka beta hai, uski video itni asani se kaise viral ho gayi?”
Sehar ne sukoon se kursi ki pusht se tikte hue jawab diya, “Pata nahi Appi… shayad bura karne walon ka waqt hamesha ek jaisa nahi rehta.”
Noor ko Sehar ke lehje par shaq hua. “Sehar… kahin ye sab tumne toh nahi kiya? Tumne kaha bhi tha na ke tumne kisi jasoos se kaam karwaya hai?”
Sehar ki muskurahat aur gehri ho gayi. “Usne mujhe video se badnaam karne ki koshish ki thi na Appi? Aaj use apne hi kiye ka phal mil gaya. Maine sirf wahi kiya jo usne mere sath kiya tha… mene badla nhi liya mene sirf Hisab barabar kiya he “
Noor ne kuch kehna chaha magar Sehar ne call cut kar diya.
Dusri tarf noor ne kuch socha aur fir uske chere pe ek fatehana muskurahat aagayi.
“I am really proud of this girl”
Udhar News chalti rahi, magar Sehar ki nazrein dhundli hoti gayin aur wo maazi ke us band kamre mein pahunch gayi jahan usne Ferwa Chachi ka phone khola tha.
hida samne bethe chocolate kha rhi thi magar sehar jo pehle laparwahi se ferwa ka phone dekh rhi thi ek dam se ek jagah jakar thithki.
“Ye to daniyal ka number he! “.
Chats open ki to vhan vo sare messages the jinme sehar ke liye tabahi ki sazish ho rahi thi.
Todha upar jane pe usne ek video dekhi , uspe click kiya to video shuru hui.
Ye ek club ki video thi , aas pass shor sharaba tha magar unhi me daniyal tha jo nashe ki halat me dhuth hokar ek kone me rakhe sofe pe leta thaa. Uske samne safed ashiyan (drugs) kanch ki table par bikhri hui thi.
Vo VIP kamre me tha to vhn chand logo ke siwa aur koi na tha.
Sehar ke chere pe ek shatir muskurahat fel gyii.
“To ye baat he , blackmailer ka bhi blackmailer mojud he “.
Sehar ne ek sard aah bhari aur haqiqat mein wapas aate hue bed par aakar bethi . Usne apna phone side mein rakha aur khali kamre mein dheere se muskurayi.
“Ye hota hai ‘Last Play’ Chachi… Aapne jis hathiyar se Daniyal ko draya, maine usi hathiyar se aap dono ko nist-o-nabood kar diya.”
Mahino pehle jo tamasha in logo ne uski zindagi ka banaya tha , Aaj wahi tamasha inki zindagion ke sath ho raha tha. Sehar ne ek gehri saans li—shatranj ki ye baazi ab waqai uske hath mein thi.
Usne apna phone uthaya ,aur apne wallpaper ko dekhne lagi.wahan uski aur zahid ki tasveer thi.tasveer ko dekh uski ankhon me ansun moti ki tarah chamke.
“Aap mujhe shehzadi kehte the na papa , dekhe aaj aapki shehzadi maliqa ban gyi.
Shehzadiyon ke liye to shehzade aate he , magar maliqa apna takht khud bachati he .”
Usne phone ki screen ko chute hue halki awaz me kaha.
” akhir kar Dushmano ke takht o mehal unki hi jalayi aag me rakh hogye “.kehte hue usne apna ser piche head rest pe tika diya.aur ankhen band kar pursukun hogyi.
Wahan Hyderabad mein, ek band kamre ke andhere mein Ferwa bethi hui thi. Ankhon ke niche kale ghere, sookha hua chehra aur bikhre hue baal—wo khud ek zinda laash lag rahi thi.
Usne thar-thrate hathon se phone pakda hua tha. Call par Daniyal ki dahat goonj rahi rahi thi.
”Tumne ye kyun kiya Ferwa?” Daniyal gusse mein garaj raha tha. “Maine wahi kiya jo tumne kaha! Sehar ko ghar se nikalwaya, uski izzat uchali… phir bhi tumne ye video leak kar di? Tumne mera career, meri izzat, sab raakh kar diya!”
”Daniyal… khuda ki qasam maine kuch nahi kiya!” Ferwa ki awaaz kaanp rahi thi. “Main toh khud yahan qaid hoon. Do din se Waqeer ne mujhe is kamre mein band kiya hua hai… poore ghar ko sab kuch pata chal chuka hai. Wo mujhe maar dalenge Daniyal!”
”Bakwas mat karo!” Daniyal ne chillate hue kaha. “Sabko kaise pata lag sakta hai? Humare beech ki baat kisi teesre ko nahi malum thi.”
”Sehar…” Ferwa ne sisakhte hue kaha. “Usi ne sab ko sab kuch bata diya hai. Aur ye video… ye bhi usi ne leak ki hogi.”
”Usme itna dimag nahi hai!” Daniyal ne nafrat se kaha. “Us jesi ladkiyan sirf rona janti hai. Magar suno Ferwa… agar ye tumhari chal hai toh yaad rakhna, ab main tumhe batata hoon ke ‘barbadi’ kise kehte hain. Tumne mera chehra duniya ko dikhaya hai na? Ab main tumhara asli chehra poore shehar ko dikhaunga. Tayyar rehna!”
Daniyal ne phone kaat diya. Ferwa ne phone kaan se hataya aur deewar se sar tika kar rone lagi.
Tabhi use darwaza khulne kin aawaz aayi , usne ummid se nazre us tarf ghumayi , vhan se Saniya apne hath me khane ki plate lekar arhi thi.use dekh ferwa ki ankhon me ummid jagi.
Vo uthi aur uske qareeb jane lagi magar isse pehle ki vo saniya ko gale lagati , saniya ne apna hath utha ke une rok diya.
Ferwa ki ankhon me dard ubhra.usne beyaqeeni se Saniya ko dekha jo sapat chera liye khane ki plate table pe rakh jane ke liye mudi thi.
“Beta..” ferwa ke labo se halki aawaz nikli.
“Na kahen mujhe beta , ye haq aap kho chukin he “. Saniya ne bina palte bola to uski ankhon me zamane bhar ka qarb utha.
“Esa na kaho Saniya , tum meri jaan ho”.
“Jaan?” Saniya ne beyaqeeni se ghum ke pucha aur fir piche hoke hasne lagi.
Use is tarh hasta dekh ferwa ko herani hui.
“Me aur aapki jaan” usne apne sine pe ungli rakhke pucha.
“Kitna jhuth boltin he aap , aapko todha sa bhi guilt nhi hota” akhir me uski hansin gayab hogyi , ankhen gusse se lal thi.
“Mene galat kiya magar sab tum hare liye kiya saniya” ferwa ne bhi is dfa chilla ke bola.
“Mere liye nhi apni hasad ki vajah se kiya aapne sab”.
“Aapko andaza bhi he aapne kya kiya he ?”
Usne dard bhari nazro se use dekha , akhir me uski aawaz dheemi pad gyi.
“Aapne mere dil me sehar ke liye shuru se nafrat bhari,
Aapne uski zindagi tabah karne me koi kami nhi chodhi….. aapne apni beti ko use kiya ,ap par baat na aaye isiliye mujhe fasaya.” Bolte bolte uski sans phuli.
Ferwa bas ek tak use dekhti rhi.
“Aapne ek beti ko uske baap se dur kardiya , aaj apki vajh se mere papa bhi mujhse dur he ” akhir me vo dahadi.
“And you know what mummy! “
“YOU DESERVE THIS , YOU DESERVE A LIFE LIKE HELL! “.
“Saniya!!!” Ferwa ke muh se beyaqeeni se nikla.
“Aapne ham sab ki zindagi barbad kardi , aapne bade papa ko slow poison diya , badi mummy ko itna truama diya! “
“Apko lagta he Allah aapko manf kardenge !”.
“Me maafi mang lungii , mujhe mafi mil jaegi, kyunki mujhe pachtawa he magar aapko” usne ferwa ki taraf hath ka ishara karke ghin se bola .
Apko nhi he aapki nazro me aap maliqa he magar haqiqat me aap kuch nhi he .”
Kehke vo rukin nhi tez awaz se darwaza band kar bahar chali gyi.
Piche ferwa apni jagah ghutno ke bal gir gyi . Ansun ankhon se lagatar behne lage , Use samajh aa gaya tha ke jis aag ko usne sulgaya tha, ab wo uske apne hi ghar ko raakh kar rahi thi.
Hasad insan ko kaha kaha tak lejati he ! Hasad insan se kya kya karwati he!
Raat ka pichla pehar tha. Charon taraf ek gehri khamoshi ka raaz tha, sirf deewar par lagi ghadi ki ‘tik-tik’ us sannate ko tod rahi thi. Sehar ki ankh achanak khuli, jaise kisi ne use pukara ho. Uske dil mein ek ajeeb si be-chaini thi, magar ye wo purani wali be-chaini nahi thi, balki ek aisi tadap thi jo use kisi dar ki taraf bula rahi thi.
Uski saans bedhal thin, uske zism se paseena beh rha tha.
Usne jaldi se apne bagal me rakha pani ka glass uthaya aur ek sans me use pi liya , magar iske baad bhi jab use asar nhi hua to usne apna phone uthaya aur noor ko call kiya.
Teesri ring pe call utha liya gya tha.
“Hello… ” fultin sans ke sath sehar ba mushkil boli.
“Hello sehar..sehar kya hua he ?” Dusri taraf se noor ki becheni bhari aawaz aayi. Vo uski aawaz sun ghabra gyi thi.
“Appi..appi mujhe azeeb lag rha he ..mere andar..mere andar aag jal rhi he aapi mujhe sukun nhi aarha. “
Uski aawaz kaamp rhi thi.
“Sehar..sehar meri baat suno bacche..” noor ne narmi se use. Pukara.”mujhe batao kya hua he akhir”.
“Appi mene sab se hisab leliya fir bhi mujhe sukun nhi mil rha , mujhe esa lag rha he jese abhi bhi kuch he jo muqammal nhi he , jese..jese me kuch miss kar rhin hun”. Usne apne seene pe haath rakha .dil ki dhadkane tez thi.
“Mubarak ho sehar ” todhi der baad noor ki pursukun aawaz aayi.
“Mubarak?kis liye aapi” use samjh nhi aaya.
“Dono jahan ke maliq ka bulawa aaya he ! Jab duniya me dil na lagen na to hame khush ho jana chaiye kyunki us wakt rabbul arshil azeem hame pukar rha hota he “
“Appi allah mujhe bula rhe hen ?”
“Hn meri jaan allah tumhe bula rhe he jao wuzu karo aur ruzu karlo ” .
“Aap kya kar rhe ho aapi”
“Main? “Usne muskurate hue pucha “mein bhi usi rab ka kalam padh rhi hun “.
“Appi mujhe dar lag rha he ” sehar ki aawaz ab bilkul dheemi thi magar ab vhn ghabrahat nhi thi.
“Dar kis chiz ka? “
“Appi agar me allah ki tarf lout kar fir bhatak gyi to.”
“To fir wapas chali jana , Allah fir se apna lenge “.
Noor ki aawaz sehar ke dil ko thanda kar rhi thi. Uske dil me ek roshni zagi.
Wo bed se uthi, thanda pani jab uske chehre aur hathon par gira toh uski rooh tak thandak pahunch gayi. Wazu karke jab wo kamre mein wapas aayi, toh bahar aasman ka manzar ajab tha. Gehra siah aasman, jahan chaand badlon ki oat mein chupa tha, Thandi hawa khidki ke pardo ko halke se hila rahi thi, vo wakt waqai sukun dey tha.
Sehar ne musalla bichaya. Usne pehli baar itne sukoon se niyat bandhi.
”Allahu Akbar” (Allah sabse bada hai).
Jab usne ye kaha, toh use ehsas hua ke waqai Allah hi sabse bada hai—Daniyal ke dhoke se bhi bada, Ferwa Chachi ki sazishen bhi uske samne choti hain, aur Sehar ka apna dukh bhi uski zaat ke samne kuch nahi.
Wo Qiyam mein thi, Surah Fatiha padhte hue usne mehsoos kiya ke wo sirf alfaaz nahi padh rahi, balki apne Rabb se baat kar rahi hai. Phir wo Ruku mein gayi.
“Subhana Rabbiyal Azeem” (Pak hai mera Rabb, jo azmat wala hai).
Apni kamar jhukaye, wo apni “ana” ko bhi jhuka rahi thi.
Lekin asli sukoon toh Sazde mein tha. Jab usne apni peshani zameen par rakhi, toh use laga jaise usne apna saara bojh zameen par udel diya ho.
“Subhana Rabbiyal A’la” (Pak hai mera Rabb, jo sabse buland hai).
Sehar ki ankhon se ansu nikal kar musalle ko bhigone lage. Wo shaks sahi kehta tha… Allah toh ‘Rehman’ hai.
Usne akhri sazden me rona shuru kar diya. Wo rona purana wala nahi tha jo us dard ki wajah se tha, ye rona toh us “Judayi” ka tha jo usne apne Khuda se ikhtiyar kar li thi. Usne Sazde mein dil hi dil mein kaha, “Mere maalik, main bhatak gayi thi. Main ghamon ko tera faisla samajh kar tujhse door ho gayi thi, magar tu toh wahi tha… mera intezar kar raha tha.”
Vo roti rhi , dabi dabi aawaz me siskiyan uske muh se wazeh thi. Magar usne apne aansun nhi poche , ye ansun bure nhi the.
“Allah! Mene sabse mohabbat ki thi sab par yaqeen kiya tha ,mene kuch galat nhi kiya tha ! “
Hawaen chlana band hogyi thi parde ab hil nhi rhe the , har chiz apni jagah tham gyi thi .
“Mene kisi ka bura nhi chaha tha allah ! Mene kisi se badla bhi lena nhi chaha tha magar….”
uski aawaz tuti “magar mene le liya allah mene sabse apna haq leliya.
Magar me sukun me nhi hun… me sukun me nhi hun.
Allah me sabki mohabbato me apko bhula bethi , mene apko bohot kosa allah bohot kosa!”.
Uske dil se aah nikal rhi thi ,uske zism ka rawa rawa khada hogya tha.
“Allah aap to vhi rab hena jinhone Musa( AS) ke liye samandar ko do hisso me baat diya tha , jinhone Ibrahim (AS)ke liye Aag ko thanda kar diya tha .allah mera yaqeen, mera iman vesa nhi he .mera iman nabiyo aur amabiyao ki tarah majbut nhi he magar mera rab bhi vhi hena jo unka rab tha.
Allah me samjhi thi aap mujhe saza derhe he , magar allah aap to azma rhe tha, Apne to Allah nabiyon ko bhi azmaya tha na. Aap azmata hi hame isiliye hena taki ham tutke apke hi pass aye judne .”.
Usne apni kohni se apne aansuo ko pocha jo rukne ka naam nhi le rhe the.
“Allah mujhe is duniya ne bohot ruswa kiya he , mujhe sabne us galti ki saza di jo mene ki bhi nhi thi , meri galti ko mera gunah bana diya Allah!.”
Vo sans lene ke liye ruki aur dobara kehne lagi.
“Allah mere mumma papa to mujhse kitna pyar karte the na , ab bhi karte he i know but unhone mujhpe eitbar nhi kiya “
“Unhe karna chaiye tha , vo nhi karte to aur kon kar sakta tha “.
“Sabne mera bohot dil dukhaya he , me to allah abhi 17 ki bhi nhi hui aur mujhe itni badi sazishon ka shikar bana diya “.
“Lekin me sabko maaf karti hun Allah . Me sabse sare gile shikwe dur karti hun , ab in sabka hisab aapke hath me deti hun allah “.
“Bas ab aap mujhe maaf karden ya Rab , mene aapko bhula diya tha sab chizo me “.
“Lekin…” usne gehri sans li .
” Lekin , Allah me aagyi der se aayi magar aagyi.
Allah mujhe ab kisi ki mohabbat nhi chaiye , kisi ki bhi nhi mumma papa ki bhi , kisi dost ki bhi nhi bas aapki allah bas aapki.
Allah mujhe apne qareeb kareln allah , meri andheri zindagi me roshni karden allah .”
Todhi der baad sazde se uthi to uska pura chera aansuon se bhiga hua tha magar ab uske chere pe kuch tha jese noor ,jese sukun. .
Namaz khatam karke jab usne Salam phera, toh bahar fajar ki halki si roshni namudar ho rahi thi. Bilkul waise hi jaise Sehar ke dil ke andhere ab khatam ho rahe the.
Usne dua ke liye hath uthaye.
“Ya Allah, aapne mera parda rakh liya. Aapne unhe unke apne hi jaal mein phansa diya. Magar mujhe ab ye badla nahi chahiye… mujhe sirf sukoon chahiye. Mere dil se wo nafrat nikal den jo mujhe apke zikr se door karti hai.”
Allah mere liye aasaniyan karden , allah mujhe sabr den mere moula.
“Allahumma ya muqallibal-qulubi, thabbit qalbi ‘ala dinik.”
(Ay Allah! Ay dilon ko pherne wale! Mere dil ko apne deen par saabit qadam rakh).
Khidki se aati thandi hawa ne uske bheege hue gaalon ko chua. Sehar ko mehsoos hua jaise uski saari thakawat, saara dard aur saari jalan dhul gayi ho. Use aaj ehsas hua ke wo pehle waqai ‘andhi’ thi, magar aaj uski rooh ki ankhen khul gayi thin.
To be continued.