Sehar e Roshni episode 21
written by sirraha…
Subeh ka waqt tha. Halki si thand aur subeh ki khamoshi ghar ke bahar faili hui thi. Sabhi log ghar ke bahar unhe wida karne ke liye khade the.
Zahid unse thoda door khade the. Na koi sawal, na koi baat. Bas khamoshi. Tabiyat ke bais vo ab kamzor hogye the.
Unki aankhon me gham aur bebasi thi, jaise wo chaah kar bhi kuch kar nahi pa rahe ho.
Saniya ek kone me khadi Sehar ko ghur rahi thi. Uski nazron me jalan aur gussa tha. Jali kati nazarein… jo chup reh kar bhi bohot kuch keh rahi thi.
Zahira, Fatima Begum se baat karne ki koshish kar rahi thi.
“Ammi, apna khayal rakhiyega…”
Lekin Fatima Begum ne na jawab diya, na nazar uthai. Unke chehre par narazgi saaf jhalak rahi thi.
Waqeer parking se gaadi lene gaye hue the.
Isi beech Sehar bhi Hida ke saamne ghutno ke bal baithi usse baat kar rhi thi.
“Hidu, rona mat,” Sehar ne uske haath pakad kar kaha, ” is baar bilkul nahi rona samjhi!.”
Hida bas Sehar ko dekhti rahi, aankhon me aansu bhare hue.
Wahin thodi door vo khadi thi .
Uske chehre par dar aur ghabrahat thi. Wo chup thi, lekin uski bechaini saaf mehsoos ho rahi thi.
Tabhi gaadi aakar ruki. Aawaz pe sabne gardane us taraf ghumayi.
Fatima Begum ne bina kuch kahe apna saman uthaya. Zahira abhi bhi baat kar rahi thi, lekin Fatima Begum ne ek lafz bhi jawab me nahi kaha.
Sehar bhi khadi ho gayi. Usne apna bag uthaya aur bina kisi se kuch bole aage badhne lagi.
Achaanak vo ruk gyi jese koi khyal aaya ho. Usne mud kar sab ki taraf dekha ….aur halki si muskurahat chehre par lakar boli….
“Aap logon ke phone me, aap logon ke liye ek surprise hai… zaroor dekhna.”
Itna keh kar wo salaam karti gaadi ki taraf bad gyi.
Peeche sab log use hairani se dekhte reh gye.
lekin Ferwa ka chehra peele pad gaya tha .Uska dil zor zor se dhadakne laga. Jaise wo jaanti ho…
ye surprise kisi ke liye acha nahi hone wala.
Sehar wahan se ja rahi thi…aaj ek baar phir.
Magar is baar farq sirf itna tha ki is baar wo bojh lekar nahi ja rahi thi…
balke wo bojh dusron ke kandhon par chhor kar ja rahi thi.
Jo dard mahino se uske dil me daba hua tha,
jo sach wo tanhaai me sambhale phirti thi,
aaj usne use khamoshi se wapas lauta diya tha.
Aaj Sehar mutmain thi.
Uske qadam halka pan mehsoos kar rahe the,
jaise uski rooh ne pehli baar saans li ho.
Magar jo log peeche reh gaye the…
wo mutmain nahi the.
Koi gusse me uljha tha,
koi jalan me jal raha tha,
koi khauf me kaanp raha tha,
aur koi sirf is darr me ke
ab jo sach saamne aane wala hai,
wo uska chehra benaqab karega.
Sehar gaadi me jaakar baith gayi.Darwaza band hua…
aur gaadi aage ki taraf badh gayi.
Sheeshe ke us paar jo chehre khade the,
wo dheere dheere chote hote ja rahe the.
Usne ek gehri saans li aur apna phone nikala.
Screen par ek recording thi…
wo sach jo sirf uske paas tha,
aur jiska bojh ab tak sirf wahi uthaye hue thi.
Usne bina kisi hichkichahat ke,
ek ek naam select kiya…
aur send ka button daba diya.
Recording sabke phone par pahunch chuki thi.
Gaadi shehar ki sadkon me gum hoti ja rahi thi,
aur peeche reh gaye logon ke liye
ab safar shuru hone wala tha…
sach ka,
hisab ka,
aur anjaam ka.
Sehar ne sheeshe se bahar dekha…
aur halki si muskurahat ke sath bas itna socha
ab meri baari khatam…
ab mera wakt shuru.
Wapas piche ke logo ke pass jao to
kuch dair baad sab log wapas ghar ke andar aa gaye.
Ghar ke andar ek ajeeb si khamoshi thi.
Jaise har chehra kisi anjaani baat ka intezar kar raha ho.
Zahid chup chap sofe pe aa bethe . Zahira bhi unke bagal me akar beth gyi.
Saniya gusse aur bechaini ke beech jhool rahi thi.
Aur Ferwa…
wo bar bar apni nazrein chura rahi thi.
Tabhi achanak
ting!
Ek sath sabke phone par notification aaya.sabne ek dusre ko herani aur nasamjhi se dekha.
Saniya ne sabse pehle apna phone uthaya.Screen par ek voice note tha. Usne bina soche samjhe voice note full awaaz me chala diya.
Aur agle hi lamhe…
ghar ki khamoshi toot gyi…
Speaker se ek awaaz sunai di……Ferwa ki awaaz.
“Haan… haan kiya maine sab…”
Zahid ka sar jhatke se utha.
“Main chahti thi tum barbaad ho jao…”
Zahira ke pero se zameen hi khisak gyi.
“Tumhari maa… har cheez me mujhse aage thi…”
Saniya ka muh khula reh gya.
“Maine sab kiya… sab…”
Kuch der baad Awaaz band hogyi thi . Har taraf khamoshi ki chadar fel chuki thi. Ghar me jaise saans lena tak mushkil hogya.
Sab but bane apni jagah pe jam gye .
Aur usi pal…
Ferwa ka phone vibrate kara. Usne chhupchaap screen dekhi ‘sehar ka message ,ek aur voice note’.
Kisi ne dhyaan nahi diya .sab apne apne shock me jame hue the.
Ferwa ne kampte hatho se use chalaya.
Is baar awaaz Sehar ki thi.
Bilkul shaant.
Bilkul saaf.
“Chachi…”
Ferwa ki aankhen bhar aayi hain.
“Maine apna wada nahi toda.”
“Maine apne muh se kuch nahi kaha.”
Ek halki si saans.
“Ye aapke alfaaz hain.”
Sehar ek pal ko ruki fir boli.
“Aur aaj…”
“ye khel yahin khatam hota hai.”
Ferwa ki ungliyaan sunn pad gyi thi uske apss ka manjar gayab ho chuka tha.
“Jeeta kaun…”
“ye to aap jaan hi chuki hongi.”
Voice note khatam ho jata he .
Ferwa wahin khadi reh gyi.
Na giri, na royi
Bas…
Itna samajh gayi ki ye sirf haar nahi thi.
ye game over tha.
Aur ab aage jo hoga vo uska muqaddar hoga.
Sham ko vo mumbai pohch chuki thi . Ghar aake vo sidha apne kamre me chali gyi. Fatima begum ne bhi usse kuch bola nahi vo janti thi uske liye sab kitna mushkil hoga..magar jo vo nahi janti thi vo ye tha ki sehar khel khatam kar chuki thi.
Kamre me aake usne noor ko message kiya.
“Me mumbai aagyi …mujhe aapse milna he “.
” wohh na salam na duaa wah sehar tum to bigad gyi” noor ne hansne wale emoji ke sath reply diya.
“Appi mujhe aapko kuch batana he “.
“To kal subeh milte hena apni jagah pe,abhi yaar me busy hu “.
” mene sabko sab bta diya”. Usne akhri teer mara.
Is baar jawab me message nahi call aaya tha.
Sehar ke chere pe ek muskurahat fel gyi.
“Tumne kya kiya sehar mujhe batao”. Noor ki hadbadahat wali aawaz aayi jese vo tez tez chal rhi ho.
“Milke hi bata paungi”.
“Hn me aarhi hu tum bhi aajao beach pe”.
“Nahi vhn nahi , yhan kone pe jo food spot hena wahan aajao , momos acche milte he vhan pe”.
“Hn?.. accha suno to” noor kuch bolti magar usse pehle vo phone band kar chuki thi.
“Allah allah ye ladki mujhe pagal karke hi chodhegi..” noor ne badbadate hue apna burkha pehna aur ghar se bahar nikli.
Sham ke wakt me vo Khula sa cafe roshniyon me naha raha tha. Choti choti peeli lights hawa ke jhonkon ke sath halki si hil rahi thi, jaise raat ko dheere dheere apni taraf bula rahi hon. Logon ki aamad-o-raft zyada thi, hansi, baatein, bartanon ki halki awaazein… sab kuch milkar ek zinda sa shor bana raha tha.
Magar cafe ke ek kone me, thoda sa alag…
wahan vo dono aamne saamne bethi thi.
Unki table par roshni seedhi gir rahi thi, Shaam dheere dheere raat me badal rahi thi, aasman ka rang gehra hota ja raha tha.
Sehar kursi par aaram se tiki hui thi. Plate uske samne rakhi thi, steam uthte momos, aur uske chehre par vo sukoon bhari laaparwahi… jaise kuch hua hi na ho.
Noor uske saamne bethi thi, nazrein abhi bhi uske chehre par jami hui. Hairani, shock aur yakeen na kar paane ka bojh uski aankhon me saaf tha.
“Ye…ye sab tumne kiya?”. Usne herani se pucha.
“Um hm” momos khati sehar ne la parwahi se ser hilaya.
” magar kese …matlab mujhe yakeen nahi ho rha” noor ne apne samne rakhe momos pe ek nazar bhi na daal kar usse fir pucha.
“Aap mujhe abhi janti hi kaha he “.
” accha magar ye batao ki tumhari chachi pe to tumhe yakeen hogya tha fir ye sab kese”. Usne aage hokar table pe hath rakh liye . Aur puri tarah se sehar ki taraf mutavvja hogyi.
” um um appi kisi pe yakeen karne me aur andha bharosa karne me fark hota he ” sehar ne apne hath tissue se saaf karte hue bola.
“Hm magar fir bhi tumhe ye sab pta kese laga “. Noor abhi tak bhi samjh nahi paarhi thi.
” chor kitna hi shatir kyun na ho , koi na koi nishan chodh hi deta he , chachi ne bhi yhi kiya… bhala aap mujhe bataye koi maa apni beti ka phone kisi ese ko kyun degi jo uske khilaf use istemal kar sakta he . Uske alawa unka behavior ek dam se badal jana ye sab normal nahi tha…for me it was not”. Vo baat khatam kar piche hokar aram se beth gyi.
” hn ye sab theek he magar ye sab baate ki vo daniyal ko blackmail karti thi ye sab?”
” jab me saniya ka phone utha sakti hu to uski maa ka uthana kya mushkil baat he ” abke usne hanste hue kaha.
” ye itna asan tha?” Noor ne fir sawal kiya.
” nahi aasan nahi tha magar mere pass ek jasus tha usne meri madad ki thi”.
“Jasus!” Noor ne chonk kar bola. Sehar ne bas asbat me ser hila diya. Vo noor ka chera nahi dekh sakti thi magar uske hav bhav pehchan use maza arha tha.
” tumne jasus se kaam karwaya … kon tha vo jasus aur kitne paise diye tumne use”. Noor ke chere pe pareshani saaf jhalak rahi thi.
“Tha koii… jyada nahi bas todhi chocolates lagi aur kaam hogya”. Abke uski nazar noor ke samne rakhe momos pe thi. Jo abhi tak anchue rakhe hue the.
” chocolates??”.
” hm” kehte hue sehar ke chere pe ek shararti muskan fel gyi.
Uske zehen pe ek manjar ubhra.
Usi din ki Dopehar ka wakt tha jab sabhi apne kamo me lage the. Hida bhi aaj school nahi gyi thi.
“Appi mujhe chocolates khani he ” hida ne apni bhen ke samne guzarish ki.
” hiddu mumma dantegi “. Sehar ne use ghurte hue kaha
” me nahi bataun unhe plss ” usne masum si shakl banake bola.
” theek he noutanki baaj chalo” sehar uska hath pakad kamre ke bahar jane lagi magar tabhi use koi khayal aaya.
Usne ghum ke hida ko dekha jo khushi khushi uske piche chalti aarhi thi.
“Chocolates khani he ?”.
” hn” hida ne nasamjhi se ser hilaya. Use dar lagne laga kahi sehar mna na karde.
“Me dila dungi magar mera ek kaam karna padega”.
” kesa kaam?”
Ferwa apne kamre me leti hui thi jab vo dheere se darwaza khol uske pass gyi.
Kisi ke aane ki aawaz pe ferwa ne chounk kar ankhen kholi.
Use dekh todhi heran hui magar fir uske chere pe ek jhuti muskan aagyi.
“Aaj school nahi gyi hida?”.
“Nahi chachi aaj man nahi kiya”. Vo ese hi masumi se boli.
“Accha kya hua, kuch chaiye. “
“Me bore horhi hu chachi”.
” hida dekho ,meri tabiyat theek nahi he beta me tumhare sath nahi khel sakti.”
“Aap nahi khelengi?” usne ankhon me pani bhar aaya.
” dekho ro mat beta tum sehar ke sath khel lo”. Use rota dekh ferwa pareshan hogyi.
“Vo to mujhse baat hi nahi kar rhi .. koi mere sath nahi khelta , papa mumma bhi nahi khelte “. Usne udasi se muh niche kar liya galo pe aansun beh kar niche girne lage.
“Umm… tum ye lo mera phone lelo”. Ferwa ne apne bagal se use phone utha ke diya.phone dekhte hi hida rona bhul gyi.
Usne ansun poch phone hath me le liya.
” iska lock kya he band ho jaega to me fir aapke pass aungi “
“Iska lock he “lao mujhe do me batati hu “lastplay” .usne uske samne password daal use dikhaya.
“Ab samjh aaya ” ferwa ne hida se pucha jo confuse dikh rhi thi.
” ye lastplay ka kya matlab he chachi “.
“Iska matlab he aakhri chal .. jab ham kisi khel me koi esa daaw lagate hena jise ham shuru se bachake rakhte he use akhri chal kehte he samjhi!”
“Hm hm” usne asbat me ser hilaya aur vhan se chali gyi.
Piche ferwa bhi ab firse neend ki aagosh me jane ko taiyar thi.
“Appi aapko phone se kya kaam he ” chocolate khati hida sehar se puch rhi thi jo ferwa ke mobile ki talashi lene me lagi thi.
” kuch nahi betu bas chachi ke phone me ek game he jo bohot majedar he , me use apne phone me le rhi hu “.
“Gamee! Mujhe bhi khelna he “.
“Nahi ye aap jese masum baccho ka khel nahi he baby.. ye bado ka khel he “.usne uske gaal ko pyara se thapka aur fir kaam me lag gyi.
Noor ki aawaz pe vo wapas aayi thi.
“Kaha kho gyi madam “.
“Kahin nahii ” usne apne hath noor ki plate ki taraf badate hue bola.
“Apne to kha liyee inhe to chodh do ” noor ne uske hath pe chapat lagayi to usne karrah se hath piche kar liya.
“Ouchh appi yaaar”. Sehar apna hath sehlane lagi.
“Acchaa lekin ye batao saniya se tumne badla leliya rahila ko uska karma mil gya chachi se bhi nipat li magar daniyal ka kya?”.
‘Vo…!! aapko pta lag jaega “. Uski baat sun noor ko ajeeb laga. “Is ladki ke dimag me chal kya raha he “.
“Vese vo recording sun kya tumhare gharwalo ne tumhe call nahi kiya”.
“Hhh”hanste hanste usnee apna phone nikal use apni call list dikhayi.
“72 missed calls” noor ki hari ankhon me herani bhar aayi.
” hn subeh se itne call kar chuke he sab mujhe”.usne phone band kar side me rakha.
“Aur tumne kisi se baat nahi ki?”.
“Nahii .. me kyun karu jab inhone mujhe nahi suna to me inhe kyun sunu ab tadap ne do inhe thoda “.
“Ese nahi karte he sehar vo maa baap he. ” noor ne pareshan hoke bola. Uska chera naqab ke piche chupa huwa tha magar ye saaf wajeh tha ki vo kitna pareshan lag rha tha.
“Me bhi to aulad thi naa appi.. inhone mujeh kyun nahi suna.. kitna gidgidayi thi pta hena aapko “. Uski ankhon me khafgi bhar aayi.
“Sehar magar.. vo maa baap he unke pass haq he naraz hone ka .. ham aulad he hamne jhugna hota he “noor ne uske hath pe hath rakh use narmi se samjhane ki koshish ki.
“Nahi appi ye baat apki shi nhi he.. kisi ka kuch bhi hona unhe ye haq nahi deta ki vo kisi masum ka dil dukhaye , use chot pochaye” usne ahista se apna hath uski giraft se nikal liya.
” lekin usme unki kya galti thi , unhe sabkuch dikhaya hi is tarah gya tha , koi aur hota too vo bhi yhi karta ..sehar baat ko samjho”. Bolte bolte uski aawaz ruhansi hogyi thi.
“Appi aap ko kya hua.. aap itni pareshan kyun ho ” .”usne baat ko nazar andaz kar uske lehze pe sawal kiya.
“Nah..nahi to me kaha” noor ek dam se atak gyi.
“Kuch to baat he ..aur hn….ap kabhi apne ghar ka jikar kyun nahi karti ..kabhi aapne apne parents ka zikar nahi kiya bas halima ka kiya tha.aap ne kabhi nahi bataya ki aap kaha se aayi he aap kon he ..AAP NE KABHI NAHI BATAYA”. Akhir me sehar ne chounk kar bola .jese use ye baat ab realise hui ho.
Uski baate sun noor ka gala sukh gya …
“Me…. tumne kabhi pucha hi nahi”.
“Hn ye bhi he “.sehar ne samjhte hue bola.
” sehar ab me chalti hu. Tumhe bhi kal school jana he henaa” usne use bina dekhe apna purse uthaya aur uth gyi.
“Are hn me to bhul hi gyi thi kheir thankss yaad dilane ke liyee.. pta nahi kal school me kese sabko muh dikhaungi” sehar ne ghabaraht me kaha.
“Kyun?”
“Are yr ek din school jake pure hafte gayab rahi hu me “
“Are koi naa bta dena teachers ko”.
“Okay allah hafiz”
“Allah hafiz khyal rakhna ” kehkar vo uthke chali gyi.
Piche sehar vhi bethi rhi..kisi khyal me gum .
Ek khyal jo bas yeh jawab chahta tha – akhir kyun sabse bade dard hame hamesha apno se hi milte he .
Iska jawab bas itna sa hi he –
ye jindagi ki reet he ise tum mita nahi sakte.
Kon tumhara apna he kon
paraya ye tum bta bhi nahi sakte.
Dard apne hi dete he kyunki unhe kamzori pta he
Warna bina kamzori jane log tumhe sata bhi nahi sakte.
To be continued