Sehar e Roshni (episode 11)
written by sirraha…
Vo dono launge me bethi thi , sehar ne unki god me ser rakha hua tha, use unki god me hi sukun milta tha.
“Papa meri baat sune bager kyun chale gye, unhe meri baat sunni chaiye thi”. Uski is baat pe fatima ko kuch yaad aya .
‘Zahid beta ek baar sehar se baat karlo , aapas me bethke baate suljhalo, bacchi he vo tumhari , aur baccho se to galtiyan ho jati he , tumne ek to use khudse dur bhej diya aur ab usse baat bhi nahi kar rhe , itni badi saza mat do us bacchi ko”
” me chalta hu meri train ka waqt hogya”. Unhone bas itna kaha aur chale gye.”
Koi baat nhi beta sab theek hoga, dekho ab raat bohot hogyi jao jake so jaao , fir kal ham shopping pe chalenge.”
Unhone pyar se uske ser pe hath ferte hue kaha.Vo bhari man se apne kamre me aayi aur balcony me aa bethi.
Char din baad se use school jana tha, use baad me pta laga ki zahid uska admission karwane aayen the .
Ab bas ek hi khyal tha jo chen se rehne nhi deta tha,
‘naya school’ ,
pichle guzre waqiyo ne uska eitbar logo se utha diya tha , vo ab kisi par yakeen nhi kar sakti thi. Uskii 8 saal purani dost ne jab use dhoka dediya to naye logo se vo kya hi umeed laga sakti thi.
Tabhi uska phone bajta he. Is aawaz pe ab uska dil tez dhadkta tha.
Pta nhi use kyun ab khof aata tha ki koi call aayega aur ek baar fir sab bikhar jaega.( Aur shayd ye vhi call tha.)
Usne apne bag se phone nikala aur screen pe chamakta naam padha.
‘Mumma calling”. Usne gehri sans li aur phone uthaya. “Assalamualikum ammi”
“Waaalaikum assalam “. Samne se zahira ki awaaz aayi , magar aaj us awaaz me koi narmi nhi thi. Vo khali thii bilkul khali.
“Ammi sab theek hena” sehar ne todhi becheni se pucha.
“Papa pohch gye na ghar”. Usne apni tasalli karna chahi.
“Ab to tum khush hona ” zahira ne pucha to sehar ek pal ko confuse hui.
“Kis chiz ke liye”
“Hame kitna barbad karogi tum hn kitna barbad karogi , “Zahira ab gusse se bol rhi thi.
“Ammi…. kya hua he ” ,
“kya chahti hoo tum , humse kya galti hui jo tum hame ye saza derhi ho “.
“Ammi mujhe bataye to kyan hua he ” ab sehar bechein hogyi thi .use samjh nhi arha tha ki ye uski maa kya keh rhi he.
” hamne tumhe yhan se dur ye sochke bheja tha ki tum apni galti manogi , magar tum nhi sudhri… mene kaha tha na ki ab kuch esa na karna jisse hamara sir majeed jhuk jaye , jhuka diya na..”
zahira gusse se boli ja rhi thi , sehar ko apna aap jalta hua mehsus hua.
“Ammi… am..mi mene kya kiya. Aap bataye…to ” uski aawaz kanprhi thi.
“Apne maa baap ka ek baar to soch letii , tum vhan jake bhi us ladke se rabte me rhi jis ki vajah se tum tumahare baap se rabte me nhi thi.” Zahira rote hue gusse me keh rhi thi.
“Am..mi”, “nhi hu me tumhari maa ……pehle baap mara tha…. ab maa bhi mar gyi ye samjho “. Sehar ka pura sharir sun hogya tha.
” aap kya keh rhi he , mene kya kiya , aur baat rhi rabte ki to me kisi se rabte me nhi rhi , aap log mera yakeen kyun nhi karte” sehar ne safai deni chahi,
“Vo tumhe maaf karne aaye the , sare shikwe mitane aaye the aur tum..ne..” aur bas sehar aage kuch na sun payi.”
Vo..vo mujhe maaf karne aye the, yaa allah vo waqai mujhe maaf karne aaye the..ye kya hogya allah , ye kya horha he allah. ,
” dusri taraf se aati awaze uske liye unsuni hogyi thi. Ab bas ek guilt tha jo jaan nhi chodh rha tha. Ye sab kya horha tha uske saath. Usne to kabhi kisi ka bura nhi chaha.
Aur ye ammi kya baat kar rhi he, me kab danial ke sath rabte me rhi.Ek min kya papa ne mumma ko bta diya ki unhone mujhe danial ke saath dekha tha.
Subeh fajar ki aazan pe uski aankh khuli , vo vhi balcony me hi sogyi thi , raat bhar rote rehne se ab ser dard kar rha tha.
Jab bathroom ke shishe me usne apna aks dekha to voh khud ko pehchan na saki.Lambe kale baal ab murjhaye hue the, khubsurat kali ankhon ke niche dark circles the. Uska khubsurat chera ab murja chuka tha. Usne apna muh dhoya aur bahar nikal aayi ,
tabhi darwaze pe dastak hui.Usne gate khola , samne fatima begum thi unke hath me nashte ki tray thi.
Usne gate khola to vo muskurati hui uske kamre me dhakhil hui.
“Nanu aap kyun pareshan hui me khud aajati “.
“Are kya pareshan hona le aaja nashta karle”.Vo unke bagal me aake beth jati he .fatima ki nazar uske chere pe padhi.
“Sehar teri ankhon ko kya hua , tu rat me soii nhii” unhone uske chere ko gor se dekhte hue pucha.
“Nhi to esa kuch nhi he ” sehar ne pakde jane ke dar se nazre pher li.
“Tu theek hena sehar , tu kyun tension leti he itni “.
“Nhi na esa kuch bhi nhi he nanu aap bematlab itni fikar kar rhi ho” usne unhe tasalli deni chahi.
Abhi vo aage kuch bolti kii launge me rakha fatima ka phone bajne laga.
“Ruke me jati hu ” sehar ne unhe uthne se rokte hue kaha .
Jab niche aake sehar ne phone dekha to vo zahira ka tha.Sehar ko ek baar fir sab yaad aya, uski ankhen nam ho chuki thi.
‘ agar mumma ne mujhse baat nhi ki to…, to fir me nanu ko phone dedungi’.usne socha.
Usne phone pick kiya to samne se rone ki aawaz aarhi thi.
“Mumma…mumma kya hua ” Lekin zahira kuch bol nhi rhi thi vo ro rhi thi. Sehar unhe pukar rhi thi magar vo nhi sun rhi thi.
Fatima begum sehar ki aawaz sun niche aayi .
“Sehar kyan hua “
” nanu dekhe na mumma ro rhi he kuch bol nhi rhi.”
“Tum..tumhari vajah se hua he sabkuch , tumhari vajah se ” zahira ki roti hui aawaz aayi to sehar aage kuch bol hi nhi payi.
“Zahira kya hua he ” fatima begum ne pucha .
“Ammi ammi zahid… “.
“Kya hua zahid ko” fatima bhi ab pareshan thi magar sehar vo apni jagah ther gyi thi. Aankhon se aansun beh rhe the.
“Zahid ko heart attack aaya he ” zahira rote hue bol rhi thi.
“Ya allah … kese aur ..aur abhi vo kesa he”
“Icu me he vo abhi “
“Ye kese hua ” ..
” ammi is ladki ki vajah se hua he sab , iski tension me unhone khana band kar diya tha , vo isse milne aaye sari bate suljhane aaye aur isne unhe majeed pareshan kar diya , jab se aye the tab se hii khoye hue se the na kuch bataya na kuch kaha . Aaj fazr me achank hii heart attack aagya , vo to unhe shi wakt pe hospital le aaye lekin abhi doctor ne kuch bataya nhi “
unhone ek sans me hi sab keh diya.
Fatima ki nazar apne bagal me khadi sehar pe padii jo abhi bhi apni jagah khadi thi. Unhone uske kandhe pe haath rakha,
“Dekh zahira me sehar ko lekar aati hu “.
“Nhi ammi ise mat lana , iski shakl nhi dekhna chahte ham , mar gyi ye hamare liye”.
“Kesi baat kar rhi he zahira aulad he terii vo “
“Nhi he ammi nhi hee ” .
“Aur agr aaj zahid ko kuch bhi hota he to uski zimmedar bas yeh hogii”
” kuch nhi hoga zahid ko aur jab zahid ko hosh aaye to batana”
” aur fir unhone call cut kar diya.”
“Sehar beta dekha ..”
vo kuch bolti isse pehle hi sehar sidhiyon. Ki tarf bhagi aur apne kamre me jake darwaza band kar liya.
To be continued….